As a spiritual director I advise many moms to start the day talking with God. This way a mom can review her day, her goals in balance with what God has called her to be, do. But me, do I do that? Not as often as I would like. I know, KNOW, in the depths of my heart that my day will go sooooooo much better if I spent time with God. These few minutes both day and night will help me feel more in control of my life, the way my life will go, what has happened to me/my life during the day, because I will have the Big Guy on my spiritual/emotional radar. I will be looking, if not actively, spiritually, for God during my day.
I will more likely be aware of what is going on in my life than feel as if life is hitting me about the face with a wet trout. So, why do I allow myself to be controlled by events instead of controlling those I can? Simplest answer: Habit, fear, and laziness.
Habit: I have become so comfortable by not trying that it is just easiest to do nothing but those things that don’t move me forward, (require work), because I use the excuse that I am just a mom. Which if you think about is pretty insulting to God and Mary. After all Mary, as a MOM, had a huge rule in Jesus’ life. Wasn’t it she who prompted Jesus at the Wedding as Canna? And as for God. Didn’t He choose Mary to bear His Son? So, being a mom must be something special for God.
Fear: I have let my thoughts that I am unworthy, (a lie 0f satan), become my guiding principle. This isn’t the unworthiness of being present before God, something I think we would all feel; no, this is the worthiness that make you feel invisible, as if you want to hide from everyone like a small frightened animal. (Often this feeling of worthiness comes from having being constantly told that you/I are/am unworthy until you/me are convinced that their lie is greater than God’s truth.)
Laziness: The child of Habit and Fear. Laziness tells you/me to hide. By hiding I mean doing anything that keeps me from doing those things that help me fulfill my calling. I would watch TV, nap, play on the computer, not care for myself; because why should I no-one will take me seriously, I have nothing to say.
So, this Lent I am making the commitment to daily spend time reviewing my day with God, doing things to move me forward; pray for my Lenten success I will definitely pray for yours.