And Now the Church Wants Me to Pray This Prayer!

faultI can’t say it, this prayer, without feeling like that little girl going around the house BEGGING, BEGGING my mother to forgive me.  See my mom held onto grudges like a miser to gold, and being very sensitive I felt every cold shoulder, every “evil” eye, and NOW the Church wants to me to pray this prayer again!

Sorry I can’t do it. No, I won’t do it. I change the words under my breathe and have a conversation with God that goes something like this: “Really Lord, after all that talk about how you died on the cross for me, loved me as the Father loves you, YOU want me to gravel like a dog!”  I understand the theology and my husband has some flowery wordy way of saying that it’s really a good prayer, its about love and forgiveness…sorry DON’T BUY IT.  After being with a mom like mine I don’t need to be abused by the Church I love.

As a social worker I worked with family in crisis who thought that to treat your children like dogs was a great way to parent.  They would say it didn’t hurt me so it won’t hurt them, really.

But in prayer about THIS very prayer, I am knocked back on my kneels when my husband will caution me that I am acting like my mom, or that my children will say that I hold a grudge; so maybe I should say it.

 

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